Monthly Archives: October 2012

On The Other Side: A Sequel to Real Nightmares


April 2, 2012, I shared with you Real Nightmares, which was based on my personal experience with my organization. Yesterday, the entire event was played again, but this time I was one of the voices that guided the blind little ducklings.
Honestly, I do not know what to make of it. At first, I was of course, excited. But through the course of the day, I just felt sorry for all of them. They ran at least 4 km, the entire morning, and went through a series of emotionally scarring activities without even eating lunch or drinking water. Not to mention, their sense of sight was completely cut off in the afternoon sessions.

I was one of them not too long ago.I was the one being screamed at. I was the one soiling my blindfold with tears. Now, I was one of the people making them cry. How did it come to this? Why did it come to this? I thought I was strong enough to resist torturing (yes, I would like to consider it torture) the when the time came, but how come I wasn’t?

But those activities were not meaningless. When I was the one in their positions, I was being taught of the values needed to be instilled in me to become a proper and functional member of the organization. I accepted those ideas without question. Now, I can only hope that the new members have also learned these values, and look beyond what they had to go through.

Whether the process of learning is deemed to be ethical or not is an entirely different issue. But for now, I must once again revisit my ideals and virtues, so that the next time I would be the voice (yes, there will be a next time) that guides them, I would not regret any action I make.


Longing for You


I long for the sensation of knowing you were waiting for me.
I long for the pleasure I get when I’m with you.
I long for the sweet caress of your skin against mine.
I long for the moment I wake up and see only your face.
Finally, today is the day I get to enjoy the time with you again.
Have you missed me? My dear sweet bed.

On: Long Hiatus


Good day to all of the people who read this,

First of all, I would like to apologize for not updating. It has been a hectic month, with deadline after deadline. I was surprised that my last post was exactly one month ago September 17. Anyway, with requirements all done today, the semester is finally over. It just means that I am currently in the agony of waiting for my grades. By the time I get them, the new semester is about to begin. *Sigh* What am I going to do? That is the life of a college student.

Anyway, instead of looking ahead too much, I’ll just look forward to the semestral break. I already have 3 weeks planned. I mean, it was my motivation to finish all of my requirements. So here is the things I would be doing….soon… I really hope I get to…

Semestral Break Bucket List

[] Read and finish Mark of Athena by Rick Riordan– I began reading the day before my final exam. I passed that exam with flying colors :)) P.S. The book is AWESOME!!

[] Watch Perks of Being a Wallflower– I put it off until this week, but sadly, it’s not showing in the cinemas anymore, so I would just be waiting for the cd or dvd version of the movie. I really can’t wait.

[] Go to Canton, China– On October 22, I would be going to China with my dad, though I have to work for the plane tickets when I get back, and it’s not for leisure. I am going there for business purposes. Still a trip abroad is not bad.

[] Go to Bicol, Philippines– On October 30, I would be going to the PHilippines, but this time its for fun!

[] Practice the guitar- the guitar has already been kept in its proper case, touched by millions of dust and untouched by human hands. Better practice my skills soon.

[] Read more books– I already have a lot lined up like The Kane Chronicles (3 books) by Rick Riordan, The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint Exupery, The Fault in Our Stars by John Greene and Sophie’s World by John Gaarder. So many books so little time. I wonder how many will I actually get to finish? Hmmm….

[] Sleep longer- The past month has been so stressful that I slept at around 1 am being the earliest. I need to catch up on some zzzzss….
***nothing follows for now****

That’s about it. This weekend I am wondering whether I should join the sleepover of my organization. A lot has happened regarding the matter of my organization the past month. I do not know how to explain it.

Anyway, will report to you soon how my bucket list would be completed, or if any would be checked out. I would also be telling you a cautionary tale soon. This weekend most likely. Enjoy you days as well! Ciao 😀