Monthly Archives: February 2013

Confusing Ending


This is the finale of my  3-day election series.

The results are out. I won, yet why do I feel like I have lost?

Of course I know the answer… Simply because my opponent lost. Actually, he ran for two positions. I already knew way before that I had a much higher chance of winning  because I was trained properly for the job. Nonetheless, I know he was so much better than his opponent for the other position. Yet people just didn’t see it…

He has a problem of saying what he wants without being mindful of other’s feelings. He does things that makes people get mad at him. he once destroyed a lantern the entire organization worked hard for. I guess that is why people are mad at him (and are still mad at him) Other than that, he is the best worker and leader ever. I mean, he NEVER crams. Something you should never do especially when doing production work.

I believed in him so much, and I wanted others to believe that as well, yet they are not able to get passed their personal biases to make the wise decision. They do not see the value in his work ethics, and instead, they see the friendliness of the person.

I am indeed confused. In these cases which is the wiser decision to take, someone who possess the better skill, but has issues with his members, or someone who has no issues with his members but has work  issues? Indeed, I am confused.




Taking the First Step


Today was the forum, and sadly, I thought I was able to do an ‘ok’ job. I expected my presentation to be better, but because of the time limit, I had to rush, thus being unable to explain well. I was also unable to answer the question well.

One important question raised to me is regarding how I should prepare for the stress about to come with the position.

I answered,” I can only be prepared if I am able to plan.”

Vague and clearly no direction.

After the forum, I was still thinking of how I should have answered the question.

I found a better answer. “I do not think I should prepare anymore because I stand before you as a candidate because I know I can handle the stress. Maybe extra measures can be taken, otherwise I am prepared.”

Better answer indeed.

Sadly, no one would know of this answer anymore.

Another stupid answer to the question, “Why should we not vote for you?”

I answered, “If you want to work, then you shouldn’t vote for me because I have the tendency to do things on my own if I can.”

Tomorrow is the election, and I am very nervous. I have a tough opponent. Nonetheless, I would be happy with whatever the result may be because I have already learned a lot from this experience.

For the First Time


Last year, I was determined to join the student council of our college, but a couple of weeks ago, I declined their offer.

I remember those days when I wanted a position, yet I threw away one of the highest positions I could ever have. I threw away one of the biggest opportunities I wished for.

Nonetheless, I want to experience getting nominated for a position, so I ran for a position in our organization- a position as the executive for finance.

Upon hearing the news, a lot of the members questioned my decision. They think I fit a better position. It maybe lower, but they think it is a job only I could handle at the moment. I am extremely happy that, for once in my life, people believe in me, in my skills and ideas. Still, I chose a decision against all expectations. Even though I wanted the lower position in the first place, there are several reasons that made me choose otherwise:

1. My academics- having the higher position would take less time away from my academics. The higher position is a one-man team, unlike the lower one. I would be able to work on my own pace.

2. My Working Style- a lot of people say that I am strict and a perfectionist. It may sound rude by I do not want anyone slowing me down. Also, I do not like or am uncomfortable when working in teams.

3. My Friend- my friend wants the lower position though I do not think she is capable YET to lead it.

The elections would happen in a couple of days. I do hope I get to explain my plans well in the forum (we call it a grilling) before the elections.