Voices of my head

I don't think anyone will ever understand what I am thinking of. I, myself, don't understand. I wonder why, the times before, I never felt this way. I was drive so full of passion. Was. Where had that gone? Was it ever truly there? He will leave you. One day. He said it himself. Why …

Monsters under the bed

I used to think there were monsters under the bed. Having to sleep on the floor in my parents' room gave me a view of under their bed. Nothing was there, I was sure. But when I turn off the lights, I swear beady eyes kept staring into my soul. Hence, sleep alluded me. But, …

Life Cycle

My last post was about my last semester of course work in College. A semester of doing practicum had passed, and the most awaited graduation day arrived.  A momentous day remembering the 5 years of my daily college routine. Finally graduating from 18 years of compulsary education. Celebrating 21 years of living and dreaming. Amidst the …

Think Happy Thoughts

Double feature tonight because I looked back, and apparently, there are too much self-loathing posts. So... I'll post an excerpt of the essay I wrote in class which got me praises from the professor. I really didn;t expect it since I crammed the paper the night before. If she gives out a grade "super", she …

Self-Analysis

Apart from teaching and cooking, I find psychology rather fascinating as well. I like finding the reasons for why people act the way they do, and every time I feel sad or depressed, I can't help but analyze myself. It is exciting to know more about why I act this way, but at the same …

Left Unwritten

I had dinner with my high school friends today. And while it was fun reminiscing about the good 'ol days, it was refreshing to hear stories about their work, rather than stories about school, exams and deadlines. While I was laughing on the outside, my mind was already stricken with fear- fear of what the …

Break Down

After more than 10 years, our car showed the signs that it had reach its limit. The air conditioned was not working right. There was a strange humming sound from the back. There were times when it just stopped all together. Do we notice these signs of a break down? Of course. Do we still …

Emotions

So today marks the first official day as the president of our organization. I don't really know how to convey my emotions, without me ending up rambling on and on about things you don't really care. Instead, I wrote these very short poems (they take the form of Haiku, but Haiku are much more complicated …

Mirror

Sometimes you wonder whether what you do is enough, and that is normal. But when you begin to doubt every single thing you do, then something must be wrong. You've accomplished a lot in your life. You've excelled far more than others, yet why do you sell yourself short? Whatever made you think that way? …

Fueling the Passion

Below is an essay I wrote for a competition. When I wrote the answer, I had the question on my mind. After reading my answer, I realized that I wasn't able to answer the question. I ended up making a different essay. I didn't want it to go to waste, so here it is: Ever …